mirror mirror on the wall thanx for remindeing i the fatest of them all !!!

ok so im dieting wich is going rather well and i feel good i lost about 5 pounds in like 4 days so i was ooo happy and there is nothink better that going shopping when your in a good mood so i hit the shops hard and i found the perfect dress but then the worst thing ever happened .......

the changing rooms nw in my opinion the changeing rooms are like personal hell there like th smallest room crammed with as many mirrors as possible and seriously you carnt ascape yourself let alone all the fat ur carrying and i didnt ever try the dress on i just left the shop with the lowest self asteem ever i was like everythink that reminede me of being fat was in that small space so i went home and worked out because when in dout excersise coz it the only time i have to myslef so i had chance to think and i think i may of over reacted and my sister sed i was having a fat day a day were everythink you do remindes me you of how fat you are but after a good 2 hour work out i had a clear head and decided that that one thing wasnt going to ruine my day so i feeel better :D :D xx

new year new me!!!

ok so after a while of thinking a planning i have come up with a diet and excersise routine i can stick with so im happy and a new year a new me and this year is going to e diffrent and i carnt wait so for inspiration ive taken acouple of  my people who inspire me as inspiration such as
khloe kardasian

i love khloe because like me she is really tall and always get named of her high and tbh she isnt stick thin anerexic but im my eyes she perfect i love everythink about her and thats why i want to look like her but in my own way :D :D

full full full

im soo full and all i ate was noodles and and some pork with vegtables and then some water and that was it and im so full i think its because im not thinking about it as mutch so im always full and i drink water loads now anyway christmas is comeing and im stillf fat so i need to get me head in the game and start working out some more xxx

uuuuurrrggghh CHRISTMAS

dont get me wronge im not scrooge but when it comes to christmas all it consistes of is food presents and lots of alchol and then some more food and when you live with my family it just food

ok so were a avaerage family but christmas is like a wekek long for us christmas eve , christmas day,boxing day , and new year and my um does a big dinner on al of them apart from christmas eve lol so i know she id going all out this year and even the veg seams fatty lol i made it though haloween and ok i confess i had lolly pops lol but im not a sweety person im a choclate person and what i wouldnt give for a really big piece of choclate right now lol .....

yum they look good but temptaion wount get the better of me  because now i have to get in to shape i have to atleast loose some weight by january beacuse my mate is haveing a fancy dress and i need to look good lol xxx so im all for it and im doing fine and i was so happy the over day i tried on this top that ive had for ages and it always use to be dead tight lol so i trried it on and it actually fitted better still not there thought so im just sitting down sipping on my water and keeping busy xxx

POWER OF THE WATER !!!

ok so today is the same as yesterday i still dont feel hungry and this is good i use to have to restrain my self from going to the cuppboard now i just sit down and happily drink my water today i had a bowl of porriage and felt sick after eating it and then for lunch i had a quarter of  a tuna butty and i feel full i dont know wats for dinner but im just sitting here drinking water and feeling full lol xx

still not hungry

so its late and im still not hungry so i just keep waitin for it to creep up on me and have a big binge but still nothink im sat hear doing some work and hitting the water alot it might be that coz i dnt really drink that mutch water but i have today but im all happy if i dnt want to be hungry fine by me it just help me out lol xxxxxxxx

i crnt belive how not hungry i am !!

i know i havent really been dieting properly and i am just sort of not eating as mutch but today i am so not hungry i had a apple juice this morning and then i had an apple for dinner i now it not aloot but im not hungry and i just dnt know why i hope this is a new beging to a slimmer more happier me because my fatt is doing my head in !!!