full full full

im soo full and all i ate was noodles and and some pork with vegtables and then some water and that was it and im so full i think its because im not thinking about it as mutch so im always full and i drink water loads now anyway christmas is comeing and im stillf fat so i need to get me head in the game and start working out some more xxx

uuuuurrrggghh CHRISTMAS

dont get me wronge im not scrooge but when it comes to christmas all it consistes of is food presents and lots of alchol and then some more food and when you live with my family it just food

ok so were a avaerage family but christmas is like a wekek long for us christmas eve , christmas day,boxing day , and new year and my um does a big dinner on al of them apart from christmas eve lol so i know she id going all out this year and even the veg seams fatty lol i made it though haloween and ok i confess i had lolly pops lol but im not a sweety person im a choclate person and what i wouldnt give for a really big piece of choclate right now lol .....

yum they look good but temptaion wount get the better of me  because now i have to get in to shape i have to atleast loose some weight by january beacuse my mate is haveing a fancy dress and i need to look good lol xxx so im all for it and im doing fine and i was so happy the over day i tried on this top that ive had for ages and it always use to be dead tight lol so i trried it on and it actually fitted better still not there thought so im just sitting down sipping on my water and keeping busy xxx

POWER OF THE WATER !!!

ok so today is the same as yesterday i still dont feel hungry and this is good i use to have to restrain my self from going to the cuppboard now i just sit down and happily drink my water today i had a bowl of porriage and felt sick after eating it and then for lunch i had a quarter of  a tuna butty and i feel full i dont know wats for dinner but im just sitting here drinking water and feeling full lol xx

still not hungry

so its late and im still not hungry so i just keep waitin for it to creep up on me and have a big binge but still nothink im sat hear doing some work and hitting the water alot it might be that coz i dnt really drink that mutch water but i have today but im all happy if i dnt want to be hungry fine by me it just help me out lol xxxxxxxx

i crnt belive how not hungry i am !!

i know i havent really been dieting properly and i am just sort of not eating as mutch but today i am so not hungry i had a apple juice this morning and then i had an apple for dinner i now it not aloot but im not hungry and i just dnt know why i hope this is a new beging to a slimmer more happier me because my fatt is doing my head in !!!

craveings what cravings ????

ok so started fresh and then suddenly out of now wewre oday i ate like half of what i usally would of and im not even hungry i am soo proud ok it has only took half of my life but thiss time i can feel the change like when you compleate one of your life long dreams and you feel over the moon and this is one  of those day and i am feeling good i have spent most of the day looking at diet tips and then i realised that the only one i need to know is restriction if i cut my self off from sugary and salty foods i feel full and i havent had choclate all day i so proud so from now on my body is my tempel and i decided what goes in it. i dont hate myself i hate what ive become i miss being the little happy kid i was when i was little now i must be one of the most fattest kids in the world lol well that an over statement even for me but even though i feel good about my self it doesnt mean i get to have a rest i need this and i need it for myself !!!!!!!

omg the shame

ok so thought id take atrip down memory lane and dragged otu all of the old photies and had a look though and i was feeling really good untill i stummbeled unpon this hidiouse photo of me that was like news flash it felt like i just got knocked out by a choclate cake and then that made me remeber what i never wanted to be and still ended up like that i felt so ashamed so i decided to stick it to the wall so every day when i look at it i can see what i dont want to look like

so you can clearly see the mortification on my face when i came across this monstrosity but i suppose it was kind of a boost to this was taken like last year and i have lost about a stone but im stil fat and i know it but takeing baby steps and getting though it i new it wasnt going to be easy but i will make sure i do !!!!!

your my inspiration

so im feelin good active almost happpy eith my self starting all over again a clean start this is wat i need so strict rules tommorow and then im off i suppose i found my insipration the thing that keeps my going the thing that makes me look towards the good stuff. its goin to tough but i know i can do and imhappy god carnt stop smiling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!