full full full

im soo full and all i ate was noodles and and some pork with vegtables and then some water and that was it and im so full i think its because im not thinking about it as mutch so im always full and i drink water loads now anyway christmas is comeing and im stillf fat so i need to get me head in the game and start working out some more xxx

uuuuurrrggghh CHRISTMAS

dont get me wronge im not scrooge but when it comes to christmas all it consistes of is food presents and lots of alchol and then some more food and when you live with my family it just food

ok so were a avaerage family but christmas is like a wekek long for us christmas eve , christmas day,boxing day , and new year and my um does a big dinner on al of them apart from christmas eve lol so i know she id going all out this year and even the veg seams fatty lol i made it though haloween and ok i confess i had lolly pops lol but im not a sweety person im a choclate person and what i wouldnt give for a really big piece of choclate right now lol .....

yum they look good but temptaion wount get the better of me  because now i have to get in to shape i have to atleast loose some weight by january beacuse my mate is haveing a fancy dress and i need to look good lol xxx so im all for it and im doing fine and i was so happy the over day i tried on this top that ive had for ages and it always use to be dead tight lol so i trried it on and it actually fitted better still not there thought so im just sitting down sipping on my water and keeping busy xxx

POWER OF THE WATER !!!

ok so today is the same as yesterday i still dont feel hungry and this is good i use to have to restrain my self from going to the cuppboard now i just sit down and happily drink my water today i had a bowl of porriage and felt sick after eating it and then for lunch i had a quarter of  a tuna butty and i feel full i dont know wats for dinner but im just sitting here drinking water and feeling full lol xx

still not hungry

so its late and im still not hungry so i just keep waitin for it to creep up on me and have a big binge but still nothink im sat hear doing some work and hitting the water alot it might be that coz i dnt really drink that mutch water but i have today but im all happy if i dnt want to be hungry fine by me it just help me out lol xxxxxxxx

i crnt belive how not hungry i am !!

i know i havent really been dieting properly and i am just sort of not eating as mutch but today i am so not hungry i had a apple juice this morning and then i had an apple for dinner i now it not aloot but im not hungry and i just dnt know why i hope this is a new beging to a slimmer more happier me because my fatt is doing my head in !!!

craveings what cravings ????

ok so started fresh and then suddenly out of now wewre oday i ate like half of what i usally would of and im not even hungry i am soo proud ok it has only took half of my life but thiss time i can feel the change like when you compleate one of your life long dreams and you feel over the moon and this is one  of those day and i am feeling good i have spent most of the day looking at diet tips and then i realised that the only one i need to know is restriction if i cut my self off from sugary and salty foods i feel full and i havent had choclate all day i so proud so from now on my body is my tempel and i decided what goes in it. i dont hate myself i hate what ive become i miss being the little happy kid i was when i was little now i must be one of the most fattest kids in the world lol well that an over statement even for me but even though i feel good about my self it doesnt mean i get to have a rest i need this and i need it for myself !!!!!!!

omg the shame

ok so thought id take atrip down memory lane and dragged otu all of the old photies and had a look though and i was feeling really good untill i stummbeled unpon this hidiouse photo of me that was like news flash it felt like i just got knocked out by a choclate cake and then that made me remeber what i never wanted to be and still ended up like that i felt so ashamed so i decided to stick it to the wall so every day when i look at it i can see what i dont want to look like

so you can clearly see the mortification on my face when i came across this monstrosity but i suppose it was kind of a boost to this was taken like last year and i have lost about a stone but im stil fat and i know it but takeing baby steps and getting though it i new it wasnt going to be easy but i will make sure i do !!!!!

your my inspiration

so im feelin good active almost happpy eith my self starting all over again a clean start this is wat i need so strict rules tommorow and then im off i suppose i found my insipration the thing that keeps my going the thing that makes me look towards the good stuff. its goin to tough but i know i can do and imhappy god carnt stop smiling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am who i am !!!!

ok so laterly ive been TRYING  to diet and it hasnt been going to well but a new day a new me and this time i seriouse im in it to win it i realised that i am who i am and there no one can change me but me i need to do this for me i need to do it for me and me only so im gonna. and there are a few things that i carnt wait to do when i loose all of this weight and trust me there is a lot of it lol .

wear a bikin to the beach and not look like im going to spill over the edge of it !!!    

eat in a restrant and not feel like im being judged with every bite i take.

so therewe go i things that i will be doing a lot when i lose weight
thank you kj xxx

omg its been a while

so its been ages since ive blogged nad since then i manged to drop 3 pound and was not impressed i kind of fell of the wagon but im back on it know and thats it its for good i feel happy when i diet and i carnt keep turning to food everytime i have a hiccup in my life so next time im angry or somethink happens in my life im gonna excersise or read a book instead of sitting infrount of the couch for 3 hours eating anythink in reaching point i feel happy and energetic when i diet so i can do it and i know i can xxx

wooopp wooop !!

so i realised that the reason im haveing so mutch trouble sticking to my diet is because i have nothink to do if for i nw that sounds wierd but its true so im gona start saving to go to this awesome snow resort called rudechalets and im planning on going like this time next year and i want to be fit and healthy because there is no way im gonna be able to go down any skiing hill this size so thats it im gonna try and loose wieght for that im so excited . so im gonna start fresh with an open mind starting from tommor morning first thing and im gonna try and work out every day and watch what i eat xxx

so im gonna turn from fat cow

TOOO

SKINNY COWW

YAAAYY !!!

diieeett

hey all you bloggers so today im still on my diet n its goin fab i feel fine so i woke at a time that was quiet late so lets just say i woke up had 2 slices f brown bread with a big glass of juice for brunch lol and then for my tea i had a cod with creamy sauce and it was only 116 cals awesome so today has went good just hope i can stick it out for the rest of the day with out giving in to my cravings and then i can stick it out for weeks to come xxx doing great x havent worked out yet but will do tonight  

meet the futur me x oh yer lol x

there is a skinny girl inside me but i just sut her up wid cake lol xx

so its day 2 n im nt really feeling anythink but its stil early days and ive decided to look over all of the old photos to look for pictures of me when i was younge and skinny for insipration. i think its a good thing lol x but laterly ive felt rather down ive always heard the saying hit the gym fat kid now that is a heartfull word but ya get over it but i dnt think peoeple realise how hard it is to loose wieght because after so mutch bingeing and eating over all the years it piles up and its not like its gonna fall of so you have to really applie yourself and make sure you do it right so this time im planning what i eat and im gonna be taking pictures of some of my meals and progressing my wieght to share with you so i not only i can see the progretion but so can you xx

thats ittt

ok so ive told you that im gonna diet again and i hough id failed because i eat ice crream but i havent but i really just didnt think i could do it and ive realised that i eat weather im hungry or not so i have decided that this is it im gnna do it this time and im gonna have fun doing it so for all you dieters out there you can do if i can lol xxxxx

fooooooooooddddd

hey all u bloggers so its day to and ive already failed but tommors another day and it always an oppitunity to start my diet again but i though that if i blogged abut it then it would be easier and i do have the target at the end of it but i suppose i carnt really belive in my self to do it i keep thinking that if i think i can do it and if i can trick my body in to doing it then ill be ok.. yer that didnt work out i suppose i just need sme tips really so if you have any please comment and leave them the more the better ....... thank you xx

'DAY 1'

so today is the day i beggin my diet n so far so gd i woke up at a gd time today lol x i woke had my breakfast cleaned my room and then crawled the web and after about an hour of searching i descovered a few good tips on how to loose weight n dont worry most of them are wat we do in a usal day any way. the first tip i found was from paris hilton ok yes shes skinny and she is on a diet god knows y lol xbut her tip was that if you drink a small glass of water dead fast minutes before you sit dnt to eat you feel fuller and even if you do want mre food you body will tell you its full....the second tip is drink coffe now this one i didnt like the sound of it sed that if you drank coffe every day it effects your eating patten and how mutch food you can cosume but you have to have it with no sugar and a little milk and if you do decide to use this tip then try splenders sweeternes they have no calories n try skimmed milk ya never no lol x i probally wount try this one though because coffe can give u a caffinne addiction n i dnt think i can handel one of them right now lol .. and the last tip was if you find your self tepted to binge eat around the nite time wait 15 minus it sed that if you wait 15 minuts then you body would of probably forgot that it was hungry and you could try writing down all the foods you want at that moment and then destroy it lol x

but my tip is if you find yourself wanting food just think to yourself am i really that hungry or can i wait untill my next meal and if you cant grab an apple its mutch better than a bag of crisps.. and keep your self busy do sumthink to take your mind of it e.g. excersise .. clean .. read .. draw..paint ... even if its just txtin your mate do sumthink to take your mind of being hungry xxx have fun blogging and remember big girls we are beautiful xxxx :) :) :) :) :)

'FAT'

fat... fat .. big boned ... puppy fat .... blobby .... chunky ... chubby... wobolly... OMG you can call it wat you want but at the end of the day its still fat and its still there. but over the years i have actually came to the conclustion that i hate the word FAT with a passion i dnt think peopel realise that fat can be really affensive and it nocks your cofidence level so mutch but when your like me and you hear it all the time you learn to not listen to it and you just ignore it. and for years i have tried to not be fat but never have i tried to loose weight for me ive always tried to do it for the benifits of others and yet you allways find that the people hu call you fat r the ones with the seriouse problems lol. but today is a new day and i have decided that i dnt want to be fat any more and this time im nt doing it for all the peopel out there im doing it for me and even with me just saying that im doing it for me i feel like ive already occomplished sumthink. and if your like me and you have tried to loose weight for the benifet of others this time dnt do it for your self . and remember ... big girls we are beautiful.. xx :) :) :)

' PERFECTION '

hey all you bloggers and todays talk is ' perfection ' so what is perfection seriously it can be diffrent to other peopel most peopel think that being stick thing is perfect but it not its only perfect to thosse who want t be it. but there are other girls all over the world hu are fat and trust me ask half of them and i bet you they all say i wouldnt change the way i am for nothink. ok im not saying that i wouldnt like to be a little fat in acouple of places but wat can you do. i would rather be fat and happy then be thin and unhappy. i bet you if you ask most of the skinny girls out there they would say im so unhappy with the way i look i want to loose more and more weight trust me they never stop being obsessed with the way they look so just think wat is your idea of perfection and even if it is to be thin go about it the right way. And remeber big girls we are beautiful

hey everyone

by now i hope you have all looked around my blog and if you havent then you should lol. i have a great idea that i can change the way peopel think about there self. all you need to know is how to dress and shop for yourself and how to look good but remember feeling good always starts from the inside clothers just give you a boose of self confidence.so if your big and you dnt like the way you look just remember big girls have attituedes and heeps of confidence.and always remember you dont have to be thin to be fabulose !!!!